Nightmare

After the little music thing strikes them a tiny little bit of interest on me

And now WHAT?

You're cool down? Oh please! 

I really don't understand why I have to do such things to PLEASE them? 

That's bullshit !

I won't and I don't do that any more. How can they talk to me when they want to talk to me and don't talk to me when they don't want to. 

What the heck?

I am a person ! I have feelings!

I try so hard to fit in and what's your problem? Oh maybe I don't really have to try and just let you guys come to me.

I really believe that I don't have to love someone who doesn't love me.

And about my Physics Teacher.

He is totally a jerk ass. I personally respect him as he is my teacher. However I really can't bear his attitude. He never looks at me when I talk to him. It is very obvious that I can see he is enthusiasm when talking to other students. I feel like he doesn't want to answer my questions.

All I can feel is nasty ignorance. This is not suppose to happen on me. 

I am always polite and attentive!

If you have a problem with me , why don't you come straightly to me?

Hilarious!

Well this maybe only the beginning  of my LOVELY nightmare .

My real nightmare happened last night.

I barely remember it after I woke up some hours later.

I can't believe someone who betrayed me almost 6 years ago come up in my dream again.

This time she still does gossip about me. 

Can I say this time is worse? 

She told people I sleep with someone. Of course this is only a dream and it's not true.

I remember i went to her in the dream and ask her about it. I was furious and I beat her and pull her hair very tightly. She screamed and her friends laughed.

This was very ironic as she replied me " So what? "

I feel like I really want to kill her in my dream.

NO words can tell how much I hate her.

I feel evil when I hear her name and her laughter.

She doesn't even deserve to have a friend.

I know I have to get used to that as this is a really old story. I haven't think of her for a long time. I don't know why she comes up in my dream. 

All I can do is move on and live a better life than everyone I have mentioned above.

Only my real friend can experience my kindness and see through me.

I am not a caviler. 

I just want people to treat me sincerely.